Creative Renewal

This drawing was made after a warm-up with a creative writing exercise.

The exercise is to establish a dialogue with a “secret” part of yourself.  Give the part an identity and characteristics.  Get to know that part. Let the writing flow without stopping or correcting as you go along.

This kind of exercise may surprise you with a deepening of your self-identity.

My example:

Dialogue with My Soul

Who are you, my Soul?  First I must understand who or what you are! How can I know you when my personality is caught up in daily living and survival?  You don’t seem to care much for that, not in your vocabulary.  You are so “present” that for you there is no “time” or “death”.

Yet I am stuck in a body that I actually love, with eyes that adore beauty, feel the flow of the curve of hills, taste the play of purple and yellow on fields of autumn grain.  The “me”, that I am most familiar with, worries about paying bills, keeping my weight steady, surviving the family dramas and mastering my own emotional weather as volatile as a Norwegian sky.

You by contrast seem to be all light and love, filled with dynamism, joyous to the point of ecstasy, content with things just as they are.  I have touched you, felt you rise up in me, explode into a million particles, disappear in your orb of energy, stable yet vibrating like a galaxy of stars.

You recede and my old perspective returns, filling the narrow confines of my ordinary consciousness.  I call you, invite you back but secretly wonder if you ever were really with me. It must be a parallel reality that touches me when I manage to get the coordinates right and meet you in the zone like a lover’s rendezvous.

Will you speak to me in a secret language that only we know?  Will you teach me to hear your voice amid the jarring clamor of daily life? There is a field where we can meet.  It is the place where I can most be myself, feeling delight and joy in what I do.

This small sketch was made after a warm-up of creative writing.

The exercise is to use 6-8 of these “asides” in a dramatic monologue about something that really matters to you.  Write only one page,  without stopping or thinking about what you are writing.  Creative writing exercises often reveal fascinating insights into early conflicts or beliefs that you can use further in your self-inquiry.

Choose 3-6 from this  list:

1. laugh if you like
2. if you say so
3. know what I mean
4. this isn’t the first time
5. I have problems of my own
6. You don’t need a PhD to…
7. In other words
8. And so forth
9. For Christ sake
10. For better or worse
11. And another thing
12. Know what I’m saying
13. Like I always say
14. Dig
15. You tell me

My example:

Laugh if you like, but I’m still trying to figure out what I want to “be” when I grow up!  Seems like at 67 I’m again in what I call a “new phase”.  How many new phases can on have in one lifetime!  For Christ sake, I’ve been “trying” to be something, someone, known, published, respected, seen or important as long as I can remember.  And another thing, when I search through old drawers I find remnants of great beginnings.  Piles of sketchbooks, small scraps of writing, poems, practice pieces, stories and loads of plans for projects with high expectations from myself and others.

You can’t tell me I haven’t “tried”. But does trying really count?  You know what I mean! Can you try to get up from a chair? It only gets you caught in the suspension between standing and sitting – or you could pop up and down over and over, like your butt and the chair are magnets with opposite poles!

In other words, I’m fed up.  It’s about time that I move from “trying” to “being”.  Taking each step forward, keeping momentum, blast expectations and fear of rejection to the skies!

Like I always say, “Where there’s a will, there’s a way!”  Actually that was my mother who said that.  What did she know about it.  She gave up when the going got rough.  She never did “get me” anyway, know what I mean!

She found her soul-friend in my sister – they could chat for hours about food and kids. I sense that I was out of her league.  Too big to handle!  You don’t need a PhD in psychology to see that I was the wild strange one – hard to control or manipulate.  For better or worse she never stopped trying!

So enough of this stuff!  Get off your butt and start working!